beabadoobee on coming home and writing as therapy: "I don't make music to win awards, I make music because I just want to make music."

beabadoobee on coming home and writing as therapy: "I don't make music to win awards, I make music because I just want to make music."

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It's not easy being far from home, especially when you're embarking on a world tour. From sleepless nights and jetlag to feeling homesick and missing family, hopping from city to city every couple of days is not as fun as it seems.

While the energy on stage and the love from fans are incomparable, touring doesn't come without challenges. For beabadobee or Bea, it's one of the most difficult parts of being in music and an obstacle she's constantly working on overcoming. 

"It's honestly pretty hard, I've only just got the hang of it. If I'm being completely honest, touring has always been an issue for me. The most depressed I've been is when I'm on tour and it's horrible," the Filipino-British singer-songwriter shares in a press conference, who also added that it's been a little easier touring places closer to home. 

"I think I'm a little biased speaking now and saying that I feel great, it's because I'm going home and I'm in places that feel close to home right now. Touring places like Asia and going back home to the Philippines is very unspoken territory, it's a whole new world [...] being close to home is quite comforting. I've been feeling really happy, which is a very rare thing for me when I'm on tour."

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While it's tough, Bea channels a lot of her sadness and homesickness into her music, taking the opportunity to write and create while learning to lean on people close to her. 

"[Touring] kind of gives me that drive to write music cause every time I write music it's cause I feel like shit and I want to write music," she says. "And I think what helps keep that drive is that I've learned to depend on the people around me instead of just pushing them, which I did for so long. I look at my band and I know they're my best friends and that I can speak to them any time. My parents are also just a phone call away."

This is one of the first times Bea is heading back to Asia to perform, ever since she made headlines with the success of her heartfelt track 'Coffee' in 2017. Since then, she's won a myriad of awards, performed at famed stages and festivals across the world, and released several highly acclaimed records.

But even with so much under her belt, there's only one thing that matters to Bea—making the music she wants to make. 

"I never want to seek awards as some sort of validation because at the end of the day I make music because I want to make music, I play guitar because I want to play guitar. It's always been like therapy since I was 17 and I think it'll always be like therapy for me. I still appreciate everything wholeheartedly but half the time, I don't know what they all are because I'm so new to this and I didn't plan for all of this to happen. As much as I am happy and I'm grateful, I don't really feel dependent on [getting these awards], I'm just like that's cool," the '10:36' act explains. 

"I think I'm in a really sweet spot where I can be appreciative towards things but also not let it affect my head. I don't make music to win awards, I make music because I just want to make music."

On tour, she'll be bringing in fans into the mystical and whimsical world born out of the singer's 7-year-old with tracks from her newly released sophomore album, beatopia. Described as a utopian escape, the record serves as a musical manifestation of the dreams Bea conjured up to escape the troubles of life. 

"When I was looking back at what my 7-year-old was doing and it was almost a way of escapism from everything that was going on in my life," says Bea. "It was a lot of accepting those feelings I've for so long repressed and just pushed under the rug."

Taking on new life on stage, the singer's concerts feel like a cathartic release of the negativity and pain of her past as she finds a renewed sense of purpose. "[This album] is like rediscovering that and living with it and growing from it, and instead of using it as an excuse to act a certain way, [I used it] to jumpstart my new life and the new Bea," she says. 

Bea will be embarking on her Asia tour all throughout September, with concerts in Manila, Singapore, and Bangkok, as well as a festival stint at Jakarta's We The Fest

Enter beabadoobee's beatopia here.